Two Weeks Later: Ryan's Point of View

So after 14 days of happiness I have come to the conclusion that marriage is tricky.. Not bad.. just tricky. A LOT of give and take! For some1 who enjoys solitude you get basically no privacy which is an adjustment.

 It's strange not having an escape after an argument but even better that you have the ability to make up and not let it linger. It's very nice to be able to be part of things such as b...ed time and stories. I rarely got to before and even though I'm not a huge part of that routine it's comforting to just be there.

 It's also nice to sit with each other, even if I'm playing playstation and Kim is blogging there is just something about being bored with each other that is so much more uplifting then being bored alone. 

One of my favorite things has been to see all the little quirks come to life. They are so annoying (as I'm sure mine are to her as well) but now that they are there I just can't imagine my life without them.

 The tricky part has been "How do you maintain individuality while living a codependent life?" I don't have the answer to this question yet. Maybe the answer is you don't. Maybe that's what makes a marriage special... or maybe the ability to live individual lives within a greater circle of dependancy is what makes a marriage special. Regardless of the answer I feel confidant, happy, and hopeful.

 To a lot of people 2 socially damaged people, a 2 yr old, a baby on the way, and a giant mutant slobbery boxer in a tiny 2 bedroom apartment would be the example of how not to wind up. For me that is exactly what my life is. It is exactly what suits me and defines who I am. It is exactly what God blessed me with and I couldn't be happier or more thankful that he did. 

While some people have huge houses, lots of $, fancy clothes, or flashy cars we have a loving household full of clueless people from me down to Gibson but we are making it work. Not only making it work but thriving in the love that holds this family together.

 For those that know me I never thought I would say this but I absolutely love my life & maybe that is the trickiest part of all for me. Accepting the fact that I am happy, that I do love my life, that I have the girl of my dreams, a wonderful daughter, a healthy baby on the way, and my best friend in Gibson here to share it with me.

 I thrive in chaos but nothing is chaotic. Everything is wonderful. To quote a friend of mine "This is a smile that I've never shown before, somebody wake me cause I must dreaming." But if this is a dream I say let me sleep forever. 

For a little punk to grow into a half decent man to have everything he could ever want before he turns 30... Not too shabby. =)